I walked into the office with my arm full of bags and dumped them down on some chairs with a heavy sigh.
Not only had I had little sleep over the past fortnight due to a back condition that was ‘playing ‘up, but I had just reached my limit of 10 days of driving around going from doctor appointments to x-rays to blood tests, to pharmacies and back to the doctors for a member of my family.
I was tired. Tired of it all. And so, I expressed myself to all in earshot of my voice. Whether they wanted to listen or not. I was complaining.
Maybe I had some good reasons to be upset but I was not happy. As the saying goes – ‘not happy Jan.’ Someone who cares for me just the other day reminded me of that day!
Reflecting upon my behaviour, it was not bad as such, but I had not accepted my circumstances. I could not change them right there and then.
I had to accept where I was, even if I had not chosen it.
I could decide to see the best of everything or the worst of everything. I could decide to wallow in my disappointment or ask God to grace me with the strength and courage (for I felt unable to do this myself) to lift me out of the ‘pit’.
Our Lord chose to love us unconditionally whether or not we returned that love. Whether or not we appreciated Him or not. Whether or not we even believed He existed. He STILL LOVED. Coming down off His throne to live on Earth for 33 years showed us this love. Dying for us on the Cross showed us this Love.
Why could I not follow His example and show this love to a member of my family?
So, accepting my circumstances, accepting my sinful nature, accepting I needed to say sorry, accepting I needed forgiveness, accepting I needed Him – a Saviour- MY Saviour to change me to learn to Love more like Him, helped me take a step more towards holiness.
Where do you need the Saviour? Do you need to accept your circumstances and then allow Him to come and transform you, your thinking, your attitude, your love, and maybe even your circumstances? For He is Jesus, Our Lord and Saviour and is quite capable to do it all.
PRAYER: Lord, here I am. This is me in all my imperfections and I need you today. Grace me with the strength and courage to accept my circumstances and transform my thinking and my attitude so that I can be transformed into your image. Amen.