We read Jesus is troubled in Spirit. His words also show us He is troubled in person too, for He was both Human and Divine and felt all those same feelings we would have at being betrayed by a supposed ‘friend.’
‘Seriously, someone is going to betray me,’ Jesus states and to the betrayer He says, ‘What you are going to do, do it quickly.’
Ever had to drink bad tasting medicine? You quickly swallow it down and then have a glass of water, milk or juice after it to take away the residual in your mouth.
Jesus had a bad, bad taste in His mouth that had been growing by the day. And it would not go away until “it was done”. His resolve was set though – that’s why He headed to Jerusalem. He knew what He was going there for.
He knew The Son of Man would be glorified and so too then God would be glorified very shortly. But it was still hard. He still thought about what was to happen, how His very own but a few, would run and hide. How those who just recently were shouting out Hail to the King would lift their voice in hatred and anger and cry out “Crucify Him.”
Had Jesus not been telling his disciples for a while now what had to happen. They just did not get it, and probably we would have exactly the same response if we lived there then too.
He was a bit peeved with Peter when Peter asked, “Where are you going? “Jesus said, “you will follow me later.” Then Peter stated like a petulant child who thinks they have all grown up and are quite capable, “why can’t I follow you now. I’ll lay my Life down for you.”
Peter who still had a long way to go in truly following Christ.
Peter who would deny even knowing Christ three times very soon.
You can see Jesus shaking his head and saying, ‘Peter, Peter, you will lay down your life for me?” Peter had the best of intentions, but his weakness and fear would take over.
Jesus knew all of this and still he was kind to his disciples.
‘My little children, I will not be with you much longer.’ He could have screamed at them in frustration and shouted at Judas. But it’s as if he just breathed a very heavy sigh.
He KNEW we just would not get it till “it” had happened. Till the death, till the resurrected Life, till the coming of the Holy Spirit would we truly understand.
Let us reflect upon all that Jesus was trying to tell us even now. That He wanted it all over and done with, but He had to follow the Father’s Perfect Plan. Jesus was obedient till death, following the Fathers will.
PRAYER: Lord, here I am. This is me in all my imperfections and I need you today. Help me walk in obedience with you following God’s will in my life today. Holy Spirit guide me in understanding and following God’s perfect plan to become the person He has called me to be. Amen