Posts by: scogee

By on 18/09/2019

By on 18/09/2019

Early evening I was sitting in a plane ready to taxi off and I looked at the curtain pulled back against the wall. This picture spoke to me. It’s like the curtains were folded back at the interval of a play.

I felt like the spirit who lives within me was saying, “It’s half time. What are you going to do? You’ve got choices and decisions to make. Are you going to get off the bench and participate?”

Yes, there is no smoking in the toilets. There are rules, but for your safety, for yours and others pleasure. There is work to do! Are you going to say yes?

These thoughts for me were what had been whirling around in my brain for a while. I had tried to ignore them. I did not want to make a decision. I was happily avoiding it.

Have you ever been in these situations?

Like your car is falling apart and you really should start saving for another one. You go and look to see if you can get a car loan, go start looking at what cars cost? And you don’t buy. You procrastinate. You think the problem will go away.

Can I tell you something? It generally does not. There comes a day when we have to face our decisions, our problems.

Sometimes the problem may seem like a big hairy Goliath in our lives. Whoever wants to face something like that? Not by choice anyway.

I don’t know about you, but I have to take a deep breath, say an earnest prayer and then logically focus. I need to look at the problem head-on, use all the gifts, abilities I have and have learnt over the years and then, with prayer, logically work out a solution or a decision.

Do you know that God helps us in everything? He wants to help us in facing the challenges that come our way. In facing the enemy who tries to destroy our confidence. We need to remember His Name. Who He is. What we have been told about Him.

He Is the great I AM. The Almighty. The Saviour of the World. He is God with Us. He never leaves us orphaned. We are His children! We are daughters of the King who reigns forever!

So, when I face my problems, issues or decisions to be made, I face them with Christ Beside me. Christ is already gone before me and Christ who has my back.

As God’s word says in Romans 8:31, “If God is for us, who can be (successful) against us?”

No one. Not one thing. We win! We are the little Davids in the Goliath story. That’s our story.

So, go face those challenges head-on with that slingshot and stones you have. God fights beside us. You’ve already won. We know the end of the story.

And yes, I’m talking to myself here too. I took a deep breath, said a prayer heavenward and marched into whatever it is God has for me in the oncoming years.

It’s scary. Goliath, the giant, is still big. But MY GOD is bigger. I actually don’t know the next steps though I do know the last chapter.

That last chapter has been written by God and that’s all I need to know to make me feel content and courageous to follow what He has for me. To be truthful, every day, I ask for the grace of courage and wisdom to choose again and choose His way.

May these jottings from my journal inspire you to believe in and fall in love with Christ- the hope of the world, as stated in Jeremiah 17:7, ‘Blessed is the man who believes and trusts in and relies on the Lord and whose hope and confident expectation is the Lord!’

Love always


By on 11/09/2019

Laughter is such good medicine. It decreases stress hormones and increases immune cells and infection-fighting antibodies, and so improves your resistance to disease.

Laughter triggers the release of endorphins which are the body’s natural feel-good chemicals.

God, who invented laughter, must have a wonderful sense of humour. His blessing of laughing not only makes you feel good, but it also helps our bodies heal. Recuperate. I love this about God. He creates us. Our bodies and everything in them has a place. Everything is for our benefit. All the minute internal workings are for a purpose. For us to live life and breathe life to the full.

Laughter is used in therapy for those who are sick because it can help lessen pain. Increase healing. My husband Bruce got a massive dose of it in his DNA.

A few weeks ago, I was visiting my parents in Brisbane, Australia. They are getting older, and I feel the necessity to talk with them more. Honour them more. My Dad is 91 and my Mum is 84. They are in good health, but “you don’t know the time, nor the day.”

I received a phone call from Bruce in Sydney. He was driving home after a long week at work. He had been working late every night, building a studio for future projects. He sounded exhausted. He asked me to do him a favour. Could I tell him the name of the Fish and Chip shop up from where we live? I said I don’t know, but it is a few shops up from St Helen’s Bakery.

He then asked me could I find it and call him back. After googling and finding a place in Tasmania, I re-googled and eventually found St Helens Park Fish and Chip. So, I rang Bruce back with the number.

He then asked me to ring the number and order him fish and chips for one plus a Chico roll. I laughed. My parents laughed. We had a great chuckle. I’m in Brisbane and he wants me to ring Sydney 1000 km away, for a fish and chip order.?

So, I did. Then I rang Bruce back to say his order was number 25. Five minutes later, I got another phone call. He had forgotten already and asked me what order number was it? I wondered if that is the furthest fish and chip order they have ever received?

I’m sure God was laughing that day.

Bruce is finding it difficult to sleep at the moment due to jetlag and so has been listening to ‘tracks to relax on’. It’s hilarious. Firstly, you hear the sounds of the ocean. That did not work, so he changed to the next track. It made me chuckle out loud. It was the sound of a chime toy from my childhood. You know the wind-up ones.

I know this may work for some but not my husband. He started changing each track every few seconds as if he was watching tv. Or trying to find something on tv to watch. You know ladies what I am talking about.

I was laughing, and I’m sure God was too.

This sense of humour that Bruce has was one of the things that attracted me to him. He could laugh at himself, make others laugh and just enjoyed life to the max.

God is like that. Never dull and boring. Such a delight to be around. Always good to us, to the world, to all lives. His smile and chuckle must shake heaven and earth at times.

Are there traits of God like this that have attracted you to Him?

The way Christ has no favourites because we are all his favourite. The way He is so patient with us, so understanding of our weaknesses, so forgiving.

If our attitude of heart is right and is humble and not proud, Jesus states when ‘we are weak, He is strong.’ He knows we are going to stuff things up often. We are not capable as human beings to achieve some things, and so this statement – ‘when we are weak,’ and there will be moments, He reassures us that, “He’s got this’!”

The things we do and the things we say on the one hand, must bring a smile to His face and at other times bring sadness. Even tears.

When we meet Him face to face would we not want His arms to be wide open waiting for that bear hug? That on His face is this huge smile and delight of love in His eyes? In His voice is love. In His demeanour is Total Love. I know I do.

Oh Lord, Grace us with your Spirit so that we bring a smile to your face, whenever you think of us. Guide us. Mold us. Amen

And yes, that word right there just brought a smile to my face, and my God’s. I first spelt it MOULD!

Don’t forget to laugh. Go watch a funny video or YouTube clip. Enjoy.

I’m now going home to have fish and chips and listen again to the sound of rain on a tin roof. (I quite like that sound).

May these jottings from my journal inspire you to believe in and fall in love with Christ- the hope of the world, as stated in Jeremiah 17:7, ‘Blessed is the man who believes and trusts in and relies on the Lord and whose hope and confident expectation is the Lord!’

Love always


By on 04/09/2019

We can let failure stop us or we can let failure teach us a better way.

“How much should I forgive my brother?”
“No, not seven times,” Jesus replied, “but seventy times seven.” (Matt 18:21-22)

I sometimes get so frustrated with myself. I do the same wrong things time after time, even though I don’t want to.

My patience wears thin when I’m tired or stressed and I don’t want it to.

I start speaking harshly especially to my husband when I feel not cared for or left out. I want to have a sweet spirit and soft words so he can hear and understand when I share with him. Not get his back up straight away.

My harshness reaps harshness and I don’t want to go there, but I do.

What’s wrong with me? Can’t I just stick to my decisions, my best of intentions?

Reading Saint Paul’s letter to the Romans I have some great company in this. “For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do – this I keep on doing.” (Romans 7:19)

Was Paul judging people, being angry and showing a lack of compassion? We don’t know, but we do know that it frustrated him. He even asked God to take it away. He realised his sinful nature and in verse 25 said, “thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord!

We need to recognize our sinful nature, but like Paul, realize it is Jesus Christ who has saved us, redeemed us. We need to also forgive ourselves (not just our neighbour) seventy times seven – lots of times, actually every time, for that is what Christ does.

If we are not careful, we give up being good, trying to be considerate, kind, generous, loving, forgiving, etc. because it is too hard.

We have failed so many times. We seem to fall back into our old ways. We don’t do things well or not at all. Our selfishness creeps in. We think our opinion is so important and people are so annoying at times.

We can allow the negative voices to be stronger than the positive voices. We don’t listen to our conscience anymore all because failure hurts.

Failure can make us feel second rate, but Jesus does not think of us like that. He tells us to forgive and start again. Afresh. Anew. For in Him, that is the next step after a mistake, an error or a sin.

Repent, turn towards change and move forward for in Him we are a new creation. And if we have to do that 70×7 times then so be it. He is always there beside us, loving us, calling us back to Him.

My Dad used to say some of the best lessons of life are learnt through the eyes of failure. So, when I read these sayings, it reminded me of his wise words.

Joe Torre said, “You can’t appreciate the good times unless you have bad times.”

Good times become good memories, while bad times become good lessons. (Anon)

Arianna Huffington said, ‘Failure is not the opposite of success but part of success.’

These human words encourage us, but the word of God from the bible are not only encouraging but full of Holy Spirit power and guides us towards solutions. The words are active like a two-edged sword that cuts between sinew and bone and speaks of truth.

God does not just talk about problems and failure but shows us the right way to succeed. We are called to trust in Him for He is God and wants to be involved in everything in our lives. He offers a true love relationship.

Jeremiah 8:4 says, “You shall say to them, thus says the Lord, do men fall and not rise up again? Does one turn away (from God) and not repent and return (to Him)” AMP

Proverbs 24:16 says, “The righteous man falls seven times and rises again, but the wicked stumble in time of disaster and collapse.” AMP

Psalm 34:10b says, “They who seek the Lord will not lack any good thing.” AMP

Sometimes our ‘failures’ are good for us. Then we don’t become too proud, too self-centred, too much like Adam and Eve who ‘knew better than God.’

But if we are seeking after God as Romans 8:28 says, “All things work for good to those who love God and are called according to his plan.”

Psalm 23:4 says, “Even when I walk through the darkest valley, I will not be afraid, for you are close beside me.” NLT

Even when it appears very glum and nothing is working and  I don’t see any light at the end of the tunnel of mistakes, failures and disappointments;

You O God walk with me.

You O God are my Light!

So, with my God, nothing is impossible, and my failures can be turned for good for me and my future. Thank you, God, that this is true!

May these jottings from my journal inspire you to believe in and fall in love with Christ- the hope of the world, as stated in Jeremiah 17:7, ‘Blessed is the man who believes and trusts in and relies on the Lord and whose hope and confident expectation is the Lord!’

Love always


By on 28/08/2019

I am reading a book at the moment called ‘Living in Dependency and Wonder.’ It describes the wonder of God. His very nature. It makes me feel full of wonder about Him.

Our human brains cannot perceive the mind of God. He is so far above in all things. In all thoughts. In all imaginations. In all deeds. In all capabilities. In all authority. He IS I AM!

He is wonderful but to realise this more because of what I read, the more knowledge of Him, what I experience… it makes me feel more awestruck in His presence. More aware when I come to Him in the Eucharist what Jesus the Son of God did for us. How precious is the gift of Himself given to us.

Isaiah was a prophet who described the wonder of God in a lot of his writings. He shared a depiction of Jesus, the Son of God with us in Isaiah 9:6

For a child has been born for us, a Son given to us,
Authority rests upon His shoulders, and he is named
Wonderful Counsellor, Mighty God,
Everlasting Father, Prince of peace.

Oh, just a few amazing traits of Jesus and also the Father. For what we know of the son comes from the Father as described by Jesus in John’s gospel.

As I explore these and other traits more, I become more amazed at the wonder of Him.

But then the rest of the title of the book hits me – ‘Living in dependency.’

Oh, that needs trust, a Faith, a belief in God that I often don’t have. Sometimes I’m good at this on my best days, but on the ‘hard’ days, “hard” times of life? Where I am confused, in discomfort, in pain, feel a lack of… just full of blah?

Faith – this complete trust or confidence in God, this living in total dependence on Him, is so important.

In ‘The Secret of the Rosary,’ by Saint Louis de Montfort, he describes “Faith as the root, the foundation and beginning of all Christian virtues and of all prayers that are pleasing to God.”

Think of a tree with its healthy roots growing down deep to stabilize the tree trunk and branches. If the root is healthy, it makes the tree live. It seeks for water and nutrition for the good of the tree. It sustains it to grow and bear fruit. The same is true of our Faith. Our trust and belief in our God.

If our prayers are heartfelt and full of Faith (even if just a little – the size of a mustard seed), then those mountains in our lives can be moved. God is pleased and encourages us to grow that Faith.

“Anyone who comes to God must believe …” states Saint Louis.

For some, they might still be checking this ‘God stuff’ out, some who are still seeking after Him, after the truth. Even ‘doubting Thomas’ doubted for a while and just found it so hard to believe that Jesus had risen from the dead, the circumstances were that bad, that devastating. Then he came out with a great Faith statement- “My Lord and My God.” (John 20:28)

But if we want our prayers to be effective, we are encouraged to come boldly to the throne of God and to desire His will in all things. The effective fervent prayer of a righteous man avails much. (James 5:16)

The NLT translation says it like this, ‘The earnest prayer of a righteous person has great power and produces wonderful results.’

The AMP translation says, ‘The heartfelt and persistent prayer of a righteous man – a believer – can accomplish much. When put into action and made effective by God, it is dynamic and can have tremendous power. ‘

St Louis goes onto say, “The greater his or her faith, the more merit his or her prayer will have, the more powerful it will be and the more it will glorify God.”

May our Faith grow as we fall more in love with our God and so may He be honoured and glorified more. By His grace, make us more dependent upon Him. Make us more amazed, full of wonder – like a little child that Jesus upholds so much for us to become more like.

May these jottings from my journal inspire you to believe in and fall in love with Christ- the hope of the world, as stated in Jeremiah 17:7, ‘Blessed is the man who believes and trusts in and relies on the Lord and whose hope and confident expectation is the Lord!’

Love always


By on 21/08/2019

Over the years, we forget so many things.

I was married at 22, and 18 months later, my first child was born. Then the next 6 years were full-on with four more children to follow.

Now as a grandparent of 9 grandchildren and spending 8 days looking after 4 of them, I remembered how much go, go, go kids have and how much slow, slow, slower I am now.

I’d forgotten how consistent children were in not wanting to go to bed, how difficult changing sheets on a top bunk was, how a two year old says “no like it” as you put their dinner in front of them and you spend the next half an hour ‘playing airplanes ‘so they will eat it all.

I’d forgotten how little children seem to eat all day, how they copied their big brothers and sisters in language, play, and behaviour. How they needed a cuddle often and frequently asked, ‘Whatcha doing?’

I’d forgotten the delight of a little hand in yours and how licking the beaters and spoon after making a cake was such a treat.

I’d forgotten how engaging the laughter of a giggling, ticklish little girl is. How honest they were and told you how it was, from their point of view anyway! How they actually love routine – it makes them feel safe.

I’d forgotten how they tremble when they get frightened and climb up your legs to safety while saying the word scary, scary.

I’d also forgotten what it was like to sleep with 2 little children in the bed with you.

I know everyone reading this right now who have experienced what I am going to describe, have a huge smile on their face with the memories.

You are in a big king size bed peacefully sleeping, but in a few hours, that will all change. You have one child chucking up on their bed, and after cleaning them down and changing the clothes and stripping the bed, you finally have settled them into the other half of your bed when another child walks in because they have wet theirs! And so, the process of cleaning starts again, and you settle them into now a third of your bed. Now your third of the bed seems to have been cut into three because you all know how little children sleep sideways and so close to you that it is as if they are stuck with super glue to you. You are squashed and often have a knee stuck in your back or an arm flung over your torso.

Yes, there’s that smile that I said you would have.

I’d forgotten how much energy it takes to put a toddler in a car seat. That expertise and strength are required in your hands and fingers to connect into the latch without catching a little squirming 2-year-old tummy.

I’d forgotten what it was like to be running on empty with lack of sleep, and after the fourth morning of a cry at 5.35 am you bring them to bed with the 2 others already there – just to get another 40 winks – even though you are now really squashed, to the extreme. Before you were only squashed. We need to count our blessings!

I’d forgotten the washing pile and the mountains of folding that you would get to later. And the in-between jobs you wanted to do – mopping, cleaning bathrooms while the little one sleeps, so you did not have a little helper!

This was all in one day.

Even though I had forgotten a lot of these memories, our God does not ever forget us. He never forgets any memories. His mercies are new every morning. Even the ‘bad’ memories He does not forget, but there is no retribution if we have asked for forgiveness and our heart is to try and change our ways.

That’s what Jesus did for us on the cross. He gave us a means of no consequence of sin. He took the ‘payback’ for us.

Jeremiah 31:20

“Is Ephraim my dear son? Is he a delightful child? Indeed, as often as I have spoken against him, (in discipline, in frustration, out of love), I certainly still remember him. Therefore, my heart yearns for him; I will surely have mercy on him,” declares the Lord.

While I was thinking of all that had happened this week, a notification came up on my phone screen. My step app had the audacity to say I was below my goals for the last four days! What!!! Well, maybe I had not been doing as many steps, but I had certainly been exercising.

As I “lay me down to sleep,” I realised I had not made time or rather had time to pray as I usually would.

I know the Lord understands, but I was very aware of how my patience was thin due to lack of sleep. How I could improve with peace, kindness, thankfulness, perseverance, especially under stress conditions.

Jesus was with me the whole day (and night) caring for, guiding, teaching, nourishing, disciplining, loving four little girls.

My body at the end of the day was numb with tiredness and my mind was not much better. In spite of this, I very much felt God was with me and I was being Jesus’ hand, feet, mouth, body, soul, mind and spirit to four of God’s precious little girls.

Mum and Dad are now home.

Now I am going to sleep in my own queen size bed all by myself.

May these jottings from my journal inspire you to believe in and fall in love with Christ- the hope of the world, as stated in Jeremiah 17:7, ‘Blessed is the man who believes and trusts in and relies on the Lord and whose hope and confident expectation is the Lord!’

Love always


By on 14/08/2019

The Assumption of Our Lady – Wednesday 14th August for 15th August

Our Lord’s Mother is taken body and soul up into Heaven at the end of her earthly life. She was assumed into heavenly glory by God.

We honour her for who she is and what role she was chosen for by God, Our Father – to be the Mother of the Son of God!

Mary’s whole existence and her importance to the world is because she was the Mother of Jesus Christ – the Mother of the Sacrificial Lamb. She was an instrument of faith that God used to show His love to the world. Through her, He sent His Son.
Pope Pius XII pointed to Genesis 3:15, where scripture supported Mary’s victory over sin and death, which was due to her intimate association with the ‘new Adam,’ Jesus Christ.

Because of Mary’s YES, this intimate relationship with Jesus Christ has been made available to us too. Jesus has given us this victory over sin and death too! Oh wow!!!

In the first miracle Jesus performed on the earth, it was Mary who told the servants, ‘Do whatever He says,’ for that was her attitude of heart. She trusted in Him completely. This was the same response to the Angel Gabriel’s announcement that God had chosen her to be the Mother of the Messiah. ‘Do with me what you will. I am the handmaiden of the Lord.’

What came out of her mouth was what was in her heart. What she believed in. The gospel of Matthew 15, verse 18 says, ‘those things that come out of a person’s mouth come forth from the heart.’

Jesus said in Matthew 12:34, ‘for the mouth speaks what the heart is full of.’

Her trust in Him was total. She did not question what or how He was going to fix the problem of no wine. But she knew He would do something.

This example displayed by Our Lady should show us that Jesus does not leave us to fix our own problems. He is aware of them. He may hide from us for a while, to test us to see if we speak out what is in our hearts. He sometimes checks what our attitude is. Towards Him? Towards things? Where are our priorities?

Will we still praise Him even when there is no fruit on the tree, no crop in the field… or will we curse Him. The last few verses in Habakkuk chapter 3 in the Old Testament is a beautiful testimony of an attitude of total trust in Our God:
Verse 17 starts, ‘Though the fig tree does not bloom,
and no fruit on the vines,
though the produce of the olive fails,
and the fields yield no food;
Though the flock is cut off from the fold,
And there is no herd in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the Lord;
I will exult in the God of my salvation.
God the Lord , is my strength…’

Jesus made Mary’s importance to us even more so on the Cross with his words, ‘this is your Mother.’

So, not only was she the Mother of the Messiah, the Saviour of the World, she was given to us as our spiritual Mother. A Mother to all who follow Jesus Christ.

Mary has only ever been talked about in all stories from the bible in relation to her Son, Jesus.

Mary within her, ‘His grace perfected in a human being,’ brought Jesus to the world and the world to Jesus. (also seen in the first miracle).

She gave the Word of God flesh by the Holy Spirit at His birth.

She was proclaiming Jesus Christ to lead others to Him. Everything in her life points to her Son. This is exactly what she did at the first miracle. Told us the servants to do what He says. Pointed to Him.

Mary – God-bearer – the name depicts God’s gift to her and so to us, this gift of her Son.

The entwining of Jesus and Mary is like no other human relationship. Full of Grace! Full of The Son of God Himself.

In the Catechism of the Catholic Church Par.722, it states: ‘it was fitting that the mother of Him in whom the whole fullness of deity dwells bodily,’ should herself be ‘full of Grace.’ She was by sheer grace. God’s favour, conceived without sin…”

“The blessed virgin Mary was, from the first moment of her conception, by a singular grace and privilege of Almighty God and by virtue of the merits of Jesus Christ, Saviour of the human race, was preserved immune from all stain of original sin.”  (Catechism Par. 421)

What occurs in any prayer to Mary, in any recitation of the Rosary, is that Mary sends all prayers to Her Son. She looks to Jesus for everything. When we repeatedly say the ‘Our Father’ and ‘Hail Mary’ and ‘Glory Be’ it is to focus on the life, death, and resurrection of Jesus Christ and some of it is through the eyes of His Mother.

Our God himself invited Mary into the saving story of His Son Jesus Christ, and she knows the honour and duty bestowed on her.

What an example of surrender she gives to us, seen in everything written about her.
We can do no better than following this human example of love and surrender.

So, on reflection, Mary is someone who I pray to so she can petition her Son for me. Mary can support me in asking her son for Grace, for mercy!

She loves us as a perfect mother. Don’t compare her to your earthly mother, (who may be wanting).

Mary dispenses perfect LOVE, for there was NO sin within her. Born without sin. She was redeemed from the moment of her conception.

Mary consoles us, reprimands us, gives us tough love when we need it, and at other times the soft caressing love of a mother.

Let us honour her by saying her prayer. Maybe today, we all understand just a little more of the honour God has bestowed upon Mary, and so we too will honour her accordingly. We don’t worship her, we honour her.

Hail Mary, full of Grace
The Lord is with thee,
Blessed art thou among woman
And blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary, Mother of God,
Pray for us sinners,
Now and at the hour of death, Amen.

May these jottings from my journal inspire you to believe in and fall in love with Christ- the hope of the world, as stated in Jeremiah 17:7, ‘Blessed is the man who believes and trusts in and relies on the Lord and whose hope and confident expectation is the Lord!’

Love always


By on 08/08/2019

By on 07/08/2019

Ever get tired and have had enough? Been working hard. Had deadlines to meet. Been caring for others. You feel like you are running on empty.

The disciples in Mark 6:30 have just come back from a ‘mission trip,’ and they were sharing with Jesus all that had occurred. Jesus encourages them to come away for a while to rest. There were too many comings and goings and no rest.

So, after getting in the boat, the crowds, seeing what was happening, decided to follow them onshore.

Jesus saw the crowd. He had compassion for them because they were like sheep without a shepherd. Are you one of the ones in the crowd He saw? Meandering along in life at times with no sense of direction, of purpose, of a greater plan? For our good shepherd Jesus sees us individually, intimately in the crowd.

And so, He began to teach them, to share wisdom, kindness, encouragement with them. Then it grew late.

The disciples came to Jesus. They had had enough. They suggested sending away the people so they could buy themselves something to eat in the surrounding villages. (for they were far from anywhere). Remember not long before this they had just returned from their travels.

So, the disciples were trying to relay to Jesus that they were all tired and to send the crowd away before they get hungry. They said, ‘Their problem of food is not our problem. We’ve had enough!’

Do we do that sometimes? Put the way we feel onto Jesus and expect Jesus to agree with us. I’m angry, I’m not forgiving anymore. I’m tired, I’m not giving any more. I’m frustrated so no more Mrs nice guy.

But what was Jesus reply? ‘You give them something to eat.’

The disciple’s first response was – do you know how much the food for all of them is going to cost.? Basically – are you insane?

And He said to them, ‘How many loaves do you have? Go and see.’

A similar scenario has happened to me, just a different set of issues.

I had a huge assignment due in week 8 of a 10-week term at school. It’s now week 2. Looking at the whole assignment, I started panicking, wondering how was I going to do all that they require? I’ll run out of time. I have no time. Where do I start? Before I’ve even begun, I have my thoughts in a defeatist attitude.

Then my wise Mother stepped in and helped me plan how to achieve what was asked. How to cut it down to bite-sized tasks to work on and so complete everything required.

The disciples looked at the huge problem and decided it was too hard and they weren’t even going to try and solve this.

But Jesus states ok what do we have? What are our gifts and abilities? What is in our hand? What can I use?

The disciples say, ‘5 loaves and 2 fish.’ Basically, not enough.

But the lesson they learn is that with Jesus, trusting in Him, and doing our bit there is more than enough. There are even left-overs after feeding 5000 men. Not including women and children. There are 12 basketfuls left over.

I’m often like the disciples. I’ve got nothing. Nothing to give to others. I can’t do what I feel God has asked me to do. I’m tired. I don’t have all the gifts and abilities. But with Jesus, there is more than enough. When we are weak, He is strong.

We sometimes think we have to figure it all out by ourselves. But no, this is an intimate relationship of love and friendship and Jesus has already figured it out. He did not panic. He did not look perplexed. Jesus wants us to trust in Him, trust in His Father. Our Father. He will ask us to cooperate with Him, but He has the perfect plan. He will ask us to put in our small number of loaves and fish but then will abundantly give to us – and then see what can be achieved.

“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Oh, do I need that Grace! Freely given. A free gift. I had to remind myself. I just need to ask for it. It’s mine for the taking if I want it.

So right now, turn to Jesus for all your needs, desires, wishes/ He will come and aid us.

May these jottings from my journal inspire you to believe in and fall in love with Christ- the hope of the world, as stated in Jeremiah 17:7, ‘Blessed is the man who believes and trusts in and relies on the Lord and whose hope and confident expectation is the Lord!’

Love always


By on 31/07/2019

A while ago, I received a journal for Christmas to scratch down my wandering mind, and yes, sometimes it wanders lots!  And it’s lots of scratchings.

I love new journals. As if the writing down of my thoughts, my prayers in a ‘new’ book will start a new and fresh and exciting stage in my life.

On the front of this empty book are the following words, ‘Life of Love.’ It spoke to something within me. If that could only depict my Life. A Life of Love. Love for my God and love for my neighbour.

Immediately I knew how it described God, an eternal life of love. Because He is love itself. Without Him, there is no true perfect love. The love we humanly describe as love is such a watered-down version. Imperfect in its action and thoughts, but still amazing because that Love inside of us comes from Our Creator. Even if we don’t realize it.

In walked my daughter and granddaughter and my thoughts were interrupted. My granddaughter’s hair is so curly that often people ask who does she take after? Invariably we state, ‘her Mother,’ but yes, she also takes after her Father.

I was struck with this thought. Would I ever hear someone say that about me? ‘She takes after her Father! Her life is full of love.’

This love may not yet be complete and perfect like my heavenly Father’s, but it shows some resemblance. People would recognize something in me that reflects something of God.

Oh, what a responsibility God has given us!

You can look at it that way, or how about another way, the Spirit within me whispered, “I am so imperfect and always will be till I reach the place, the ‘room’ my Father has made for me in His house.”

So why not call upon His Grace to fill you? Ask for His help in loving better, loving more. Seek out His assistance in seeing with the eyes of Love, touching with the hands of Love, hearing the cries of people in need, doing it all with Love.

If true Love, Sacrificial Pure Love can only come from God then ask Him to share that Love with you.

Oh, I felt free! I don’t have to try and do it all by myself. What a relief. For I know my weaknesses. I know I want to do the right thing and love completely, wholly, purely. But it just does not happen. Tiredness creeps in. Selfishness, a judgemental attitude, a ‘what about me first’ attitude comes to the fore.

My transformation – that evolving into the person God created me to be – only happens on the other side of surrender.

William Booth, the founder of the Salvation Army, once said, “the greatness of a man’s power is the measure of his surrender.”

As Christians, our power was first promised by Christ after the resurrection and given to us on the day of Pentecost by the Holy Spirit.

Luke 24:49 says, ‘and see, I am sending upon you what my Father promised; so, stay here in the city until you have been clothed with power from on high.’

It is only in our surrender to our God that the third person of the Trinity – the Holy Spirit – can ‘clothe’ us with His Power. The image I get is kneeling before the throne of God and being encased in a royal robe and the touch of The Holy Spirit setting our hearts aflame for God.

His Love surrounds us, is within us.

But notice the picture. I’m kneeling. I’m surrendering. I’m allowing The Holy Spirit to clothe me.

So as my mind wanders with imagery of God, my heart knows now how I can Love Better. Love more perfectly. How I can have that ’Life of Love’ that started these thoughts?

Surrender myself, all of me, hold nothing back to the God of love each day and ask for Him to be merciful and gracious and fill me more with His Love.

May these jottings from my journal inspire you to believe in and fall in love with Christ- the hope of the world, as stated in Jeremiah 17:7, ‘Blessed is the man who believes and trusts in and relies on the Lord and whose hope and confident expectation is the Lord!’

Love always